blag or wyt…jara!!!

lately, ive been feeling down and confused again…but let me share something that really made me laugh hard…nans shared baby mamark’s new song…it goes this way…

watermelon, watermelon…pataya, pataya…nananananana,nananananana…POSAYAS!POSAYAS!

BWAHAHAHAHA…how cute our baby mamark is…he still finds it hard to talk straight but he knows how to sing…i can’t even get a decent conversation from him on the phone but when i start singing "ipaglalaban ko ang ating pag-ibig…" he will end the song for me…of course, with his own lyrics but on a correct tone…

oh children, what joy they can bring! hope to keep in touch with the child in me again…

ill be leaving for manila later today…iloilo has changed a lot but the whole time i was here it felt like i was me back in college…i havent been to miag-ao due to time constraint but still goin’ to the city brings back a lot of memories…sleeping and staying in meggy’s room makes me smile and i even laugh alone when in remember all our insomniac escapades before; it gives a sense of solace…riding the aerodynamic jeepneys makes me travel through time…i am just thankful for the experience coz it reminded me that i have a lot of dreams i conceived in iloilo that i still need to reach and it’s nice to say "sa lugar lang" again.

malakat nah!

I am in

Iloilo

right now to be with and share the grief of my cousins on my uncle’s death. An envoy as nans would put it, since both my parents will no be able to make it at this short notice. But there could be other reasons why I am here right now….

….i am trying to test my response to unplanned trips, delayed flights, anxiety over the upcoming encounter with the clan that has long been considering to get rid of me from the family tree

…get to spend time with my bro…I wanna see Toto in the environment he is right now as a nursing student and as a grown-up dealing with life…

…have a reunion with my utols in the organization and take a look at the campus that Ive tried to survive in for 4 years…

…get time off from work and re-assess my life and goals…

This are some of the reasons ive had in mind while I was waiting for my flight yesterday…I still have to see what the outcome will be…

I feel though that im off to a good start when I stepped on Iloilo soil and saw dd wearing his med school uniform with the nameplate…and after that being able to taste Ted’s batchoy again…and of course chatting with Toto and hearing his laughter in person…and the nice feeling of being in a familiar territory and everything is plain nostalgic…

basta salamat sa mga sponsors…and bahala na si batman!

last night, i was able to spend time with mayang and bevz, my PS batchmates and former housemates, at carafe. it was a spur of the moment decision while may and i was walking from the office. "one for the road" was the original plan but then bevz took time to join us and we enjoyed ourselves…i miss these gals…yes, we always see each other at work, we’re always together in our cult-building activities, we take our auxes almost at the same time…but last night was different…it was like the days in evangelista when we got to share our dinner of bbq and chicken together or our afternoon snacks of ate’s burger…and the moments when we were financially deprived and bevz would shell out her 5 peso collection so that we may eat what we crave for…just like old times when mayang pawned her cellphone just so the gals can go shopping and we can taste go nuts donuts…it was nostalgic and i really enjoyed the experience last night…i just cant explain it but it feels great to be with the gals again…salamat mga bilatra!

there is a time in our lives when we feel that the future seems so bleak and everything is just passing by with the speed of light. i have been warped in that space for almost a month already. dark and sullen was how i can describe it. there are moments though when i get a glimpse of a certain ray of light exuded by love, companionship, laughter even tears from friends and family. but last july 29, i was brought out of my shell by an illumination emanating from a guy who was just a face in the crowd before. his smile and eyes did the trick. yes, i may be just infatuated with him but what i cherish is the thought that ill be seeing him around in the workplace and its enough to make me smile. when i feel so gloomy and caught in melancholy, i just try to take a look at him and the world seems to be so kind.

to the guy, i just want to say that you may not even know i exist but right now you give meaning to my life. pardon me for stalking you but please dont take away from me a reason to smile and be happy for the meantime. just a glimpse. that’s all ill take from/of you. to ML..this is for you..

Superman returns and who gives a damn. Well, that was my initial reaction. But then having May babbling and ranting on how nice the movie is, I took the chance of watching it using the complimentary ticket from Aling Nena’s store.

I can say it is amazing! Frankly, I am not a much of a fan of Superman but was caught in a trance while watching the movie. Just don’t know if it is because of my damsel in distress syndrome or Superman’s charm is so powerful that it tugged at my hardened heart. It is an in-depth and concise movie but more on the lighter side. One gets affected but not to the point of remorse or with heaviness in one’s heart, it keeps you dreaming after one gets out of the cinema.

I do envy Lois Lane. I am a certified klutz. With a capital K! If something lands on my hand it will either fall, spill or break. Should there be a Superman in my life, I think he’ll be able to help me with this disability. On the other hand, it could be taxing to have a Superman as a partner in life. One might need to check on him always if you’ll see him…around. And of course he’ll just reply with "I’ll always be around" but that doesn’t mean he’ll be around with you. The main premise is it’s you against his mission to save the world. Love might conquer all,but Superman’s got a bigger responsibility in saving the world not just one person.

Since, it is but fantasy for me to have a Superman in my life, this gave me some realization. We can all be a Superman for ourselves. Why not?! I may not have superpowers but, as shown in the movie, superheroes do have weaknesses as well. They sometimes feel like an outcast and there really comes a time when one doesn’t have anybody but one’s self. We may encounter a lot of Lex Luthor in our lives who will stab us with kryptonite but there is always a chance to recharge. In moments like we are in a state of coma because of all hardships and struggles we’re going through, it will still be the whispers of reassurance of the people we love and who truly love us that will "bring us back to life." It is always nice to know that fantasies can give us the inspiration  to face reality.

we’re on the road…we move from place to place…being pulled out from one’s comfort zone can take quite a lot of adjustments…im so used with my graveyard schedule that i still cant take it that starting monday ill be on a 2:30am shift already…though i hate the time sched, this will be the first time in my entire stay with the company that ill get weekend rest days. feels like a normal working person already. well, one can’t always have the best of both worlds…

Staring at nothingness while sipping mocha cappucino and smoking Marlboro lights, sadness gnawed at her heart again. A bout of homesickness revealing its symptoms. The city’s skyline illuminated in the darkness of the night. She was about to cry when from a distance there’s a splendid display of colorful sparks from fireworks. Ironic, she thought. But it made her smile then. The firework display brightened her gloomy disposition.

No matter how dark it may be, somewhere out there an unexpected spark or even just a little gleam of light will really show up.

PARA SA TANANG BISAYA…(nakuha ra sad ni nako sa spam gi forward…dawbi kay nalingaw man ko so dia sya ron…)

1. You feel insulted when a non-Bisdak
ridicules
someone by saying "bisaya" but it’s okay if another
bisdak uses it to another Bisdak,as in "ah,
bisayaa pud oy!".

2. You feel proud when Matud nila is sung and you
sing along with it bisan dili nimo memorize.

3. Hibal-an nimo kung unsa ang ‘habal-habal’ bisan
wala pa ka kasakay niani ug siyempre pa
ang "sikad".

4. Common usages kung ga-tinagalog: the use of
"kuwan" as interjection ang superlative nga pirmi
gamiton mao ang "masyado", i.e., maingay
masyado, sobra masyado, bilisan mo mas! yado
(read:paspasi lagi) ug adunay tendency nga
pulihan lang ang "o" or "a" og "i" — i.e.,ang atop
into atip, ang kan-on into kan-in, ang sud-an
into sud-in ug ang utan into…

5. You know what "itlog mo ‘noy orange" means.

6. You know that the karaang "bayle" aron
mamahimong modern gipulihan na og "disco" -
discoral.

7. Aduna kay hibaw-an nga at least usa ka kanta
ni Yoyoy Villame or Max Surban bisan sa tono
lang.

8. You can use varied terms of endearment for
friends and relatives? like bay, parts, paparts,
migo,parekoy,pareng, choy, higala, kid, gaw,
gaweks, manoy,nong,inse, ditse, iyo, iya,
palangga, pangga, gang.

9. You call someone "Inday" and/or "Dodong" as
a term of affection and hate it when other non-
bisdak use the term as if its a title given for a
househelp.

10. You know what "maning-hag" is?

11. You know vino kulafu and fighter wine…
sometimes you even know its jingle!

12. Instead of stork, you chose snowbear or
you buy Timbura when you mean Corniks.

13. You’re familiar with the brand Loalde in
clothing.

14. You crave for inun-unan, paklay, halang-halang,
law-oy, kinilaw,ginamos, bulad, binignit (!tabirak),
sikwate paresan sa puto maya.

15. Esteban Escudero and Golyat are folk heroes.

16. Handumanan sa Usa ka Awit is closer to your
heart than Maalaala Mo Kaya TV show.

17. at …pag-nagulat-nabigla ang mga bisdak ang
biglang sigaw "ay BILAT" o kaya "ay otin sa horse"

18. SUTUKIL is as common as TAPSI, in fact you
know that SUTUKIL came first.

19. Your common pulutan for Tuba drinking is
"TARGET" - asin nga targeton lang nimo sa imong
tudlo.

20. You have at least once in your lifetime
experienced "Ang Mysterio sa Paglawig sa Barko
Padulong Manila", a phenomenon that when the
Boat is approaching Manila, everybod! y around you
suddenly becomes tagalong speaking nga adtong
miaging adlaw lang pwerting bisaya pa ninyo!

21. You whisper bisaya to a fellow bisdak in the
midst of a tagalog crowd …and he replies loudly to
you in tagalog!

22. The first question you ask when you found out
that someone is bisdak, "taga-asa man diay ka?"

23. You usually use the warning phrase ‘Hala Ka’!

24. You know the meaning and proper usages of
the following (irreverent) words/phrases: pesteng
yawa,usapa na, astilan,latina__, butalo, way
kurat,hastang, PUSLAN MAN, kuwangol, libod-
suroy,ligas-paka, way kuha, ka-ubo,kolera,
sampila(koy),burik_t, barbaki, mangga ka sir?,
duha singko,balang,palag?, wa ka kyapi?, ok pas
olrayt, haybol, ang pahak!, jer-jer, way
blema,tulibagbag, pagarpar,giro,pamalalat,
kalandrakas, ambot sa langaw pilay edad sa ok-
ok, bugnawg simod, buak ang pula, bagdok,
gi-atay!,gi-ahak, tibak (tiguwang bakla), NPA
(nawong puros agtang), mamaklad, agua de
pataranta, tira pasagad, basin diay pilay pad’s sa
ungoy, banat kay awaaw, mat-an pas pinya,
ngitngit pas alkitran, tak-om pas tuway, ug uban
pa…. gibangkulya, gi-atay, pastilan, sus!

25. Sigurado ko nga naa pa kay ikadugang ani….
miembro ka sa gkk no? ‘gagmayng ki-at ki-at’!
Ayaw kalimti ang LKK (Looy Kaayo Ka),
bayntchenge (.25), sewewen (.50), wesiwesi (P1),
eskina lang noy, pamokong, bahala na’g ligsan
basta inert, ug ering-ering DUHA!

Sa mga lugar, kahibalo ka asa ang Larsia! n
Bukid,Bolibards, kandingan, sutukil,
Duawon,original NghoYong (kadtong orange nga
plato nga puwerting ka mantikaon).

Be proud that you are a "BISDAK" !!!