blag or wyt…jara!!!

there is a time in our lives when we feel that the future seems so bleak and everything is just passing by with the speed of light. i have been warped in that space for almost a month already. dark and sullen was how i can describe it. there are moments though when i get a glimpse of a certain ray of light exuded by love, companionship, laughter even tears from friends and family. but last july 29, i was brought out of my shell by an illumination emanating from a guy who was just a face in the crowd before. his smile and eyes did the trick. yes, i may be just infatuated with him but what i cherish is the thought that ill be seeing him around in the workplace and its enough to make me smile. when i feel so gloomy and caught in melancholy, i just try to take a look at him and the world seems to be so kind.

to the guy, i just want to say that you may not even know i exist but right now you give meaning to my life. pardon me for stalking you but please dont take away from me a reason to smile and be happy for the meantime. just a glimpse. that’s all ill take from/of you. to ML..this is for you..

Superman returns and who gives a damn. Well, that was my initial reaction. But then having May babbling and ranting on how nice the movie is, I took the chance of watching it using the complimentary ticket from Aling Nena’s store.

I can say it is amazing! Frankly, I am not a much of a fan of Superman but was caught in a trance while watching the movie. Just don’t know if it is because of my damsel in distress syndrome or Superman’s charm is so powerful that it tugged at my hardened heart. It is an in-depth and concise movie but more on the lighter side. One gets affected but not to the point of remorse or with heaviness in one’s heart, it keeps you dreaming after one gets out of the cinema.

I do envy Lois Lane. I am a certified klutz. With a capital K! If something lands on my hand it will either fall, spill or break. Should there be a Superman in my life, I think he’ll be able to help me with this disability. On the other hand, it could be taxing to have a Superman as a partner in life. One might need to check on him always if you’ll see him…around. And of course he’ll just reply with "I’ll always be around" but that doesn’t mean he’ll be around with you. The main premise is it’s you against his mission to save the world. Love might conquer all,but Superman’s got a bigger responsibility in saving the world not just one person.

Since, it is but fantasy for me to have a Superman in my life, this gave me some realization. We can all be a Superman for ourselves. Why not?! I may not have superpowers but, as shown in the movie, superheroes do have weaknesses as well. They sometimes feel like an outcast and there really comes a time when one doesn’t have anybody but one’s self. We may encounter a lot of Lex Luthor in our lives who will stab us with kryptonite but there is always a chance to recharge. In moments like we are in a state of coma because of all hardships and struggles we’re going through, it will still be the whispers of reassurance of the people we love and who truly love us that will "bring us back to life." It is always nice to know that fantasies can give us the inspiration  to face reality.

we’re on the road…we move from place to place…being pulled out from one’s comfort zone can take quite a lot of adjustments…im so used with my graveyard schedule that i still cant take it that starting monday ill be on a 2:30am shift already…though i hate the time sched, this will be the first time in my entire stay with the company that ill get weekend rest days. feels like a normal working person already. well, one can’t always have the best of both worlds…